Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Some one should just start this already.
I know it can suck to be the first person, but this site will be completely useless if no one's asking any questions. So just ask. anything. Stay anonymous, I don't care. We just need to get this ball rolling, or else the grass underneath it will turn brown and die.
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ReplyDeleteDear Pseudonym,
this is a serious dilemma in my life. the past few months i've been really really depressed. and it doesn't make any sense. school is going fine. i did just quit my job but it's because i would cry from how degraded i felt every friday night after. so that's but a recent development in this whole self depricating binge.
the issue is i don't know what the issue is. i have a's and b's, so school is going great. work is work, and it's made me completely independent so i don't have to feel any sort of guilt towards anyone. my debts are paid. i'm pretty attracted to myself, and go to bars on occassion and have never left without getting a call back or better. so i'm not sexually frustrated either. and i can't figure it out.
advice. right.
how do i convince myself that i am really happy? because i should be. the odds are leaning like the fucking tower of piza against me and i'm pushing that bitch straight.
em said maybe it's because i don't dress like a hoe. that male attention is what i crave, but deeper than just attraction. and that i should start dressing more "girly." she sees potentials in my life and the people around me, and thinks that maybe they just can't see me as a potential boo loving.
but what the fuck is girly? is it necessary to purchase fitted colorful tees and skinny jeans? i feel some sort of way about flaunting my tits around my guy friends just to send the image "hey, i'm here. i'm single. and i really want someone down to earth to appreciate that for more than just one or two nights." even though that's probably not even the message that will get sent. instead they'll think something along the lines "hey, kel's got some nice tits. i wonder who she's trying to bang tonight?" or at least that's what i think they'll think. but i don't even want to fuck any of them!
help! i don't know how to solve my crisis. all i want is to be content for any amount of time. i do agree with em that i should try to meet new people, but apparently bars are not where it's at, school isn't really an option, and otherwise i'm at a lost. :(
sincerely,
debby downer